Life will give you whatever experience is the most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.
When my body is hungry, I crave food. When my body is thirsty, I crave water. I don't have to be in control of that. My body knows what to do to heal itself. It seeks what it needs. Sometimes, I don't want to eat when I'm thirsty because I'm too lazy to get myself some water. Or sometimes I don't want to eat when I'm hungry because I feel too busy to get myself some food. But that's my mind talking. My body is simpler. More straightforward. It knows what it needs to heal.
My soul is the same way. It seeks out situations that it needs to heal. It seeks out interactions with controlling people or people that engage in behaviors that trigger me so that I can have the chance to set my boundaries and heal. Soul craves growth. Sometimes, in those situations, I don't want to set boundaries or respond in a healthy way because I feel scared or hurt. But that's my mind, getting in the way. My soul is simpler. More straightforward. It knows what it needs to heal. The trick is to silence my mind.
A meditation for July 10, 2013.
Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For – U2