victim – a meditation

 

Being a victim is more palatable than having to recognize the intrinsic contradictions of one's own governing philosophy.

 Tom Clancy, “The Hunt for Red October”

When I saw this quote,  I thought, “Bingo!” This is one of my truths in my life. Before program, I bemoaned my life and my place in it. If anyone offered advice on how to alter my situation, I found myself explaining a list of well-practiced reasons as to why I was a victim. The truth was I was scared. And I was too scared to take an honest look at my own part in the situation because I was afraid I might see that my worst fears about me are true.

Thankfully, I came into the program and started working the Steps. Steps 4, 5, 6, & 7 helped me out with learning to see what my part is and then accepting myself with compassion for who I was. It also helped me a great deal to get a Sponsor who could remain emotionally detached from my life and call me out on “the intrinsic contradictions of [my] own governing philosophy” and help me to learn tools to grow spiritually. These were but some of the many many gifts of the program.

A meditation for June 8, 2013.


Stronger – Kanye West

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