New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.
Most often when I mourn an end, it is intricately wrapped up with fear of the future. Recovery has allowed me to realize that when something or someone leaves my life, it is because my Higher Power is leading me to the next part of my spiritual journey which can only help me grow and improve in life and love. In the past, it was difficult for me the trust that everything would work out because I had nothing in particular to trust. Now I can trust my loving Higher Power.
This, I used to think, meant that I couldn't ever feel upset if I truly trusted and loved my Higher Power. Now, I've come to realize that I am not in a place where I can do that. For me, my spiritual journey has meant that I can honor the fact that I am in pain at times without basing my decisions solely on this emotion.
Now, when I leave a situation or a person, it is still with a heavy heart and honor my feelings; but I have an open mind and open arms in trusting my my Higher Power with my future.
A meditation for May 16, 2013.
Time – Hootie & the Blowfish