The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind.
– Caroline Myss
A huge part of my struggle with Steps 2 and 3 has been in the conflict between my heart, or soul, and my mind. In my heart, I feel the love and guidance of a higher power. But my mind insists that only what is observable and measurable can be true. When my heart is in ascendance, I gain support and healing from the certainty of God's love, and I can easily place my will and my life into God's care. When my rational mind rules, I question the very idea that anything outside myself could restore my sanity, and I hold onto control with every atom of will that I possess.
What I know, in both heart and mind, is that my thinking, my will to control, brought me to the point of surrender. When I live in my heart, I find healing in the program, and in the will of my higher power. When my mind takes over, I can so easily fall back to worry and unproductive attempts to control everything around me. I must remind myself to let go, to trust in my soul, and I will find healing.
A meditation for March 1, 2013.