We need to learn to live, to focus on something good or useful to our lives and let the rest of the world go about its business.
How Can I Help My Children?
Today, I flipped open a book and saw this quote. I think it was a Higher Power moment. I was feeling deeply resentful and angry about some expectations I had of a loved one. Being very stressed at work and outside work, I expected my loved one to pick up the slack at home so that I can spend more time on self-care, which I hadn't really been doing at all lately! When I reached out to my loved one for help, my loved one simply said ‘no' and continued to engage in what I judged a frivolous time-wasting behavior. I felt resentful of my loved one's free time when I barely had time to take a shower in the morning.
After speaking to a friend in the program and my sponsor, I realized that I was expecting my loved one to do certain things that I felt he must do. But I had been prioritizing a multitude of other things over my self-care and the frustration I felt was because I haven't been tending to my self-care. As the quote says, I was, at this point, able to understand how to focus on the good or useful by realizing I need to focus on my own self-care. Once I realized this, I was able to let go of my resentments and focus on doing the next right thing for my serenity.
A meditation for March 29, 2013.
You Gotta Be – Des'ree