I can't be all things to all people, but I can be someone special to some people.”
–From Survival to Recovery, p 284
My family and friends from home are not in recovery. As a result, when I return home to visit I realize that my old “roles” still remain. It's easy for me to slip into my old behaviors as enabler and fixer. When I do this, I realize I become resentful. Thanks to the program, I am able to take pause before I agree to do something and see if it is something I want to do or something I feel I must do. As a result, I am able to be who I really am rather than what I think others want me to be. While this has caused some tension in certain relationships, it has also helped bring about the closest relationships I have in my life – including the one I have with myself and the one I have with my Higher Power. It has also helped me discover who I am and love myself for it. Because of this new level of honesty, I feel fewer resentments towards both with others and with myself. In this way, I am able to be true to myself and closer to my Higher Power.
A meditation for February 24, 2013.
Me – Kina