A miracle is a shift in perception from fear to love.
-Marianne Williamson
This quote reminds me of the miracle of the Al-anon recovery program for me. Before recovery, I used to make choices and decisions based solely on fear – fear of loss, fear of pain, fear of suffering, fear of decision, fear of feelings, fear of abandonment etc. I was extremely unhappy. I constantly tried to fix my environment so that I could feel better. I kept throwing solutions at a problem that I didn't really fully understand. I lived my life completely in survival mode.
Now, that I am in the program, I am able to take pause and be more aware of why I am making the choices I am. Today, when I realize I am engaging in fear-based behavior, I am able to to a quick inventory on the situation and really look at my motivations. Now, I focus on acting out of love of myself and others. When I do this I find myself closer to my Higher Power. When I do this, I no l0nger try to take control of situations and people. My life has changed drastically as a result. I find that the more I act out of love the more I feel love for myself and others. Not only am I happy, but more importantly, I am serene. It feels like a miracle.
A meditation for February 26, 2013.
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