We shall find peace. We shall hear angels. We shall see the sky sparkling with diamonds.
I would like to take today to be thankful for the program of recovery, the fellowship, and the steps of Al-anon. I got some positive news about a personal issue that I was presented with in the past few weeks. In the beginning of that time, I was sad and initially resorted to my old habits and behaviors of control. Thanks to the recovery program, I realized quickly that those behaviors still don't work for me. Through the support of the fellowship, I was able to allow myself to feel my pain and sadness, but also feel hope. And thanks to the steps of the program, I was able to let go of my illusion of control and trust my Higher Power so much so that I did not obsess about the situation. It did not define me. Even when I received the positive information yesterday, I felt happy but not relieved. At first, I wondered why I didn't feel relieved, then I realized it was because, thanks to recovery, for the first time in my life, I wasn't holding my breath. Instead, I was open and accepting of reality and trusting of my Higher Power. I believed that everything would be OK. And no matter how it turned out, it would have been.
A meditation for February 20, 2013.
Beautiful Day – U2