Letting go of the process – Episode 105

Do you want to do recovery “your way”? Are you skipping steps because you don’t like them? Can you let go of control? Spencer and Harriet talk about letting go of the process.

  • Harriet, can you explain what you meant by “letting go of the process” when you suggested this topic?
  • How do/did you try to control your recovery?
    • obsessively doing the things we *can* do
    • overdoing self-care
  • What parts of it do/did you particularly not want to let go of?
    • “character defects” — I want them removed in my order
    • outcomes
    • comfort in maintaining the illusion of control over my own life
  • Why?
  • How does letting go help your recovery? Your peace of mind?
    • focusing on control of outcomes is a “fool’s errand” and makes my life unmanageable
    • It frees me to focus on the things I can control
    • Frees me to do self-care
  • What blocks you from letting go?
    • impatience
    • perfectionism
    • Not wanting to feel unpleasant feelings
    • judgement and shame
    • fear
    • expectations
  • What ways have you found to let go?
    • Prerequisite – Accept who and where I am right now.
    • Being open to the universe — humility
    • Work with a sponsor
    • Prayer
    • Meditation
    • what else?
  • What do you still struggle with letting go of?
  • What would you say to a newcomer who isn’t sure the program will work for them?

Upcoming topics include caretaking and parenting. We are particularly interested in hearing your experiences of parenting in an alcoholic family. How do you talk to your children about alcoholism? What amends have you made to your children? If your spouse is still drinking, what do you do to keep your children safe?Please call us at 734-707-8795 or email feedback@therecoveryshow.com with your questions or experience, strength and hope. Or just leave a comment right here.
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Changes – Episode 47

Do you wish that things would just stay the same? Does change freak you out? Maybe you get depressed when live today isn’t the same as yesterday. If you identify with these feelings, stick around. Today, I’m going to talk about changes.

There is a big change for the Recovery Show: Kelli and Swetha have decided, for personal reasons, that they can no longer participate in the show. In this episode Spencer reflects on how this change affected him, and how he is using the program to work through it. Here is his rough outline for the show

  • Awareness: What happened? How I felt? What I did?
    • “Change is a process … becoming aware is the first stage of this process.” (How Al-Anon Works, p. 23)
  • Fear of change and uncertainty. What about just giving up?
  • Acceptance:
    • “being willing to feel the feels, and if I can’t bring myself to do the next right thing, at least trying to refrain from doing the next wrong thing” (from a friend via Facebook)
    • “Change, even wonderful, positive change, involves some grief for the old … life” (HAW p. 88)
    • Working the steps: 1 … 2 & 3 … 4 & 5 … 6 & 7
    • Gratitude — for what was — and that I can keep on moving forward.
    • Serenity prayer!
    • Reading from Bless the Imperfect.
  • Action
    • Sermon this morning: “What is the love story we tell that keeps us going?”
    • Where are we going?
    • I am committed to continuing the podcast.
    • I will be drawing on the local recovery community for guests and maybe, ultimately, new co-hosts.
    • It will be different. I fear not as good, and I hope to grow into something better (just as we would have continued to do.)
    • Your contributions are valuable, perhaps more now than ever.
  • Thank you to all who have contributed, and special thanks to those who sent prayers for me this week.

Our topic for next week is Step 10. Please call us at 734-707-8795 or email feedback@therecoveryshow.com with your questions or experience, strength and hope. Or just leave a comment right here.
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