Out of your vulnerabilities will come your strength.
Sigmund Freud
I have a fear of showing my weaknesses. I have a fear of letting others know when I have been less than perfect. I fear that my flaws will set me apart as “less than” and verify that I am not good enough. But when I walked into the meeting rooms of my recovery program, I realized that the only thing that sets me apart as different is when I identify myself as different. It is my own judgment of myself and others the spurs my decision and fear that if anyone really knew me and really knew I was human, I wouldn't be enough. Now that I have worked the Steps (especially Steps 4, 5 and 6) I realize my weaknesses, fears, and vulnerabilities and accept them for what they are. I realized I can accept myself as who I am, for my feelings, fears – everything. And then I can make the conscious choice as to how I act. When I am able to do this, my they are no longer areas which, if pointed to by others, can hurt me. Now, those same characteristics that I used to hide, I use as tools to reach out to others. With my own experience in these ways, I am able to reach out to another person in pain and, by sharing my experience, strength, and hope, help another realize that they are not alone, either.
A meditation for June 13, 2013
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